In Case of Emergency

Recently I shook hands with my mortality

I have never thought myself immortality

I however, never considered myself

Particularly mortal

Funny how everyone around me

My care team

Took the time to report on my youth

“But you are so young!”

Yet I feel so mortal

But I have a daughter

I life to shape!!!

Important business to conduct!

I am busy for at least two decades

He just stood there, shrugged his shoulders and muttered under his breath

“I don’t know what to tell ya kid”

Now we are at a stalemate

I’m walking on eggshells

Waiting for mortality to pull the rug from me

He always wins, the bastard!

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Forgiveness

Sometimes a person needs to scream

Sometimes a person needs to listen

Sometimes a person needs to speak

Most times a person needs to forgive

And let live

Random thoughts

As I sit here

On the bus going somewhere

I catch a glimpse of the one

When you see her you’ll know which one

With the curves that influence life changes

Break oaths and the tone of the ages

The one who makes sane men

Change life as we know it with a stroke of the pen

The kind of woman that influences matches

Inspires picketers and rioters

Starts movements and becomes an icon

I saw her today

She was at the bus stop waiting

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Life is like a city

Most folks want to live on the upper east side

Complete with valet parking and butlers

Most can only afford public housing

Where you park your car at your own risk

We are conditioned to aspire to the midtown condos

Concierge trash pickup

Without the let me get your door butler service

We can visit all these sides of town

As long as we take the right road

Sometimes we need good friends

To remind us we are visiting 

Not staying long

I see you

Sitting really still.

Holding the essence of your being in place.

Scared to twitch, breath or you’ll be displaced.

I see you.

The Stillest item in bustling train running swiftly through a bustling city.

A conspicuous stillness in the everyday commotion.

I fear you,

You are all of us on a bad day.

The strength you must master to keep from shattering.

Have you missed your stop a couple of times?

Are you on autopilot following familiar routines?

I see your blank expression.

I also see you frantically working to keep your shattered aura from splintering around you.

My heart goes out to you.

While I pray frantically not to be you.

I need you to understand though,

That I see you.

The world seems to go on around you even when yours has stopped.

The absurdity of everyday demands mean little to you!

I see and feel you.

My selfish prayer is never to be you.

Let me tell you bout my day

So it rained.

“So what?” is what I hear you asking.

“So, my naive friend, my 40 minute commute on the metro bus turned into a 150 minute crawl as cars refused to move because God forbid they get wet!”

Ok, maybe I am a little frustrated, it’s Halloween surely I will make it on time to trick or treat with the minions right?!

WRONG!

I made it in time to catch the end of the wet adventure, find a wet ninja and a mischievous pineapple in good spirits with their chocolate breath and glazed eyes.

I am deep breathing because anxiety has kicked in. I call my cleaning lady because the house looks like a hurricane blew through and I can’t find toothpaste! Toothpaste! I bought toothpaste two days ago, two tubes, how do I not have toothpaste?!

My cleaning lady forgives me(it was a rough breakup where I ghosted her)for tying to be independent for a year and takes me back, ( she made me beg a little) I’m in tears ( true love endures ).Then I panic because the house is a mess and she will judge me! Which makes me flip my shit and try to fix it leading to my getting overwhelmed and getting crankier snipping at everyone before I take a shower, go to bed on an empty stomach and a very grouchy mood. God help me!

If I don’t make it, if I go missing, please look in closet. I’ll be the one cowering in the corner drinking moscato.